and here we go again…

no I am not pregnant

but today… just a few days shy of Khéna being 17 months I got my first PPAF… (Post-partum “Aunt-Flo” for those that are not familiar with the lingo)

With the firt two boys I got my PPAF at about 9 months… when they started to walk and nurse less in the day and started eating solids… With Khéna though, he did not slow in nursing at all when he started milestones… he didn’t have those normal periods where he was more wakeful at night either…

But slowly, he has been nursing less and when I got really crampy and irritable at the begining of the week, I knew that it would not be long…

the bloating could also be a reason that the scale showed so much of a difference as today I am now 5 lbs less then I was when I weighed myself on Wednesday…

Though I do and did enjoy the time that I don’t have to go through the monthly rituals… I do have to say that being able to start charting again and knowing what my body is doing makes things a bit easier for me…

Maybe one day I would like to have another child but I don’t think it is the right time at the moment… I want the boys to grow a bit before…

well… that was a bit depressing…

So… I knew that my scale was not reliable at all…. it was giving weights up to 5 lbs in difference each time I stepped on it…

So I went and bought a new scale last… and well… depressing as it is… I am 13 lbs heavier than the old scale was telling me …

I was already discouraged… when I saw that I felt a bit depressed…

However… today, looking at it…  It will be OK…
It is just a number and though I am farther from my goal than what I thought… I rather know now than if I found out after one of my mini-goals and found out that I really wasn’t there yet… at least this way I know where I really am and I know what I need to do to get where I want to be…

Honestly, I think that I need to eat a bit more… I got some great feedback and it made me realize that because I am a bit heavier than I thought and I am getting more exercise… then I might not be eating enough… and if that is the case I my body might be in  “starvation mode” and hoarding the fat instead of letting it go…

So… I will just keep on going… I really want this…

A bit discouraged…

Swimming is doing great… I am getting stronger and I am building endurance. I can go longer without stopping to take a break and breathe..

I have been journaling what I eat and I have been staying within my “limits” which isn’t that hard to do actually because there are not many habits that need changing though I have been keeping my eye out a bit more on portion sizes…

I do feel like I have more energy… which feels great…

but….

I step on the scale and there is no change.. My measurements don’t really seem like they are changing either… I do think I need a new scale though because every time I step on it I get a different number but the lowest number is not really going down…

It is hard because though I think I know that the changes I am making are great for me, I would have liked to start seeing results…

It is just hard to not get discouraged…

Sparkpeople…

I joined  Sparkpeople last year but never got into it… but in the last few weeks I have been checking it out more and have started to enter stuff everyday… and I think that I might be seeing a few results…

When I was doing WW way back when It really did help when I journaled what I was eating and it is proving to be helpful again… I also love that everything is there and very visually based so I can set goals if I wish and see that I have fulfilled them…

I haven’t really gotten into the message boards but I know that there is support for everyone there so I might start posting a bit more..

Anyone else a member there?

keep on swimming…

Keep on swimming… keep on swimming… swimming.. swimming…

I have been trying to go swimming 2-3X a week and slowly it is becoming easier to actually get up after supper and go…

It is not far away… So to swim for the hour that is open…  I am gone from home from about 6:25 to 7:35… that works out to be right after supper while the kids are in the bath and gettin ready for bed… then when I come home I can nurse the little ones to sleep…

the first day I went I worked myself a bit too hard… I was sore before I left the pool… but now I go slowly and steadily and I am slowly building my endurance… by the end on an hour I end up doing about 25-30 laps… which may not be much but at least I am moving and I keep on moving…

What’s hard though is that swimming is a great excersise but you get really hungry when you are done… I really need to find some good snacks that will fill me up without just adding back all of the calories that I just burned off…

so… I went swimming…

and I overdid myself the first day, I think I was a bit over enthusiastic… I did about 20 laps and by the time I was getting into the car I was already sore… I was sore most of the night but wasn’t too bad the next day… just a bit tender…

I went again on Tuesday though and went a bit more slowly… I did about 12 laps… half of those were free style and then the rest were swimming on my sides, backstroke, underwater and using the kickboard to give my arms a rest…

Yesterday I didn’t go… mostly because I would like to get a new pair of goggles before I go again… my eyes are really sensitive to the chlorine and the goggles I have keep on letting water in on one side… which is not only bad for my eyes but really annoying… Of course I can’t expect too much of them after having spent most of last summer in the sun or at the bottom of our own pool because the kids kept on throwing them in… I want to go get a new pair today though because  I want to again tonight… I think I would like for the family to come with me also… since half of the pool is for free swim while two rows are reserved for laps…

swimming…

My eating habits are pretty good… I don’t eat much junk, My portions are pretty normal but I do need to work on eating more slowly… but the weight is not coming off as fast as I would like… I know I need to move more so that I am burning more calories that I eat… but the gym is WAY too expensive and though walking is great, it is freezing and Icy out and it just doesn’t interest me… but I love the water, I love to swim so that is what I am going to start doing…

Yesterday I bought a new Bathing suit… I am kind of between sizes at the moment so I choose the smaller size knowing that it might be a bit tight at the moment but that if I start to swim on a regular basis I will start losing a bit and I will fit into it better…

So, I am going to be going 2-3X a week… it is about 5 min away and I am going to go after supper while Simon gets the kids ready for bed because the pool is open for laps between 7 and 8… so starting Monday, that is what I am going to be doing…

good cleaning day…

We tackled the playroom today… and when I say tackled… I really mean it…

We have a lot of toys… too many toys in my opinion..

I have been avoiding that room for longer than I would have wanted because it was so bad…

A while ago I did a purge and we cleaned up the playroom but we didn’t purge enough and slowly (or quickly) the playroom became a mess again… a soon it became an unusable mess…  toys all over the floor and we really couldn’t walk in there… Simon would go clean up every week but it was hard because there was just too much stuff… and of course, the messier it became the less the boys wanted to play there.

I almost wish that we would have taken a picture…

Anyway… today we spent about 3 hours in there today. Decluttering toys to put away, throw out or give away… We rearranged furniture and made the space so much more usable and it will be a lot easier to keep clean because there is less toys and more space and it will also be a place to play for Khéna because really he hasn’t been able to play in the playroom often because of the mess…

So… slowly but surely the house is becoming less cluttered… we still have a lot to do but it is really helping us to keep the house clean which means that weekends are becoming more of family time…